Two of my BFFs were off for Veteran's Day, and took the Monday before it off as well to make a 4-day weekend. Smart ladies... : ) They were planning a shopping trip to the NH seacoast and, specifically, to the Christmas Tree Shop and I was invited along. This was it; my big opportunity; the day I had been waiting for all those times my husband had offered to take any day off ever that I wanted to get out of the house. So I did it. Yay!! I mean, really, don't YOU just love a bargain??? Of course, it took a couple of guilt trips to get my hubby to use a vacation day to cover my ass ("When do I ever ask you for anything?", was what I specifically said, I believe.) and a lot of "this is for breakfast", "don't forget we're not doing afternoon naps anymore", "this is for lunch, mix it with the leftover green beans and add some rice cereal to thicken it up", etc. But it was all SO worth it!
I met the girls at 8 am for breakfast and I took full advantage with coffee, french toast and bacon. I had to decompress and wake up (a strange combination) during breakfast so I wasn't much fun in the early hours of the morning with no schedule to stick to but we hit the road around 9 and I found my groove at some point. I find that while I love to talk, and hear my friend's stories, I am getting rusty with my conversing skills. My sarcasm is not as sharp, my wit is not as quick, my stories all revolve around baby bumps, bruises, and bums. Ugh... I am the boring mom friend I never wanted to be!! Good thing I have good friends who love me anyway and do a great job staying interested when I share my stories and anxieties about my kids. Even after I drag them to Babies R Us for gates, binkies, and sippy cups, LOL!!
We shopped the Christmas Tree Shop for a good solid 2 hours before we saw the checkout line and said, "If it's like this already, lets get out of here now while we still can." I think we stood in line 20 minutes or so. It was strange to me to have the available time to do that kind of thing. If I'd had my kids with me, any one or all of them, it would have been, "I don't need a $6 basket and $10 in musical instrument stocking stuffers. Fuck this, we're out." But it was liberating to be able to stand in line looking around, chit chatting, and thinking random thoughts.
After we left there we decided to make the outlets in Kittery, ME our next stop. We made a wrong turn somewhere while trying to get to 95 that landed us in downtown Portsmouth (a great area, if you've never been). Both of my friends had been to a palm reader right around the corner from where we were in September, who they said did a great job. So, on the spur of the moment, we decided to stop in to get my palms read. I've never had my palms read, I've always been to scared. I have short life lines so I didn't want to hear, "Make the most out of the next 5 years and oh, by the way, you should probably quit smoking now." It was $25 to have both palms read and the only info she needed to read me was my full name and my date of birth. It was so much fun! She was really good; right on the money (no pun intended) about my personality and situation, but mentioned some things for the future that I will have to wait and see on. I was surprised by how young she was (maybe between 20 and 25 (she had a Pussycat Dolls hoodie on!). Here's what she said, more or less, anyway; she said so much, with my ADD, it's hard to remember everything:
"I see that you are a good person, very open and honest. I see that you do a lot with others in mind and for other people but don't always get recognition for the things you do; you very often feel unappreciated, like you don't always get the appreciation you think you deserve for the things you do. I see that you have a very good aura, and are meant to have good karma come to you throughout your life. I see that you have one or two close friends that will remain with your throughout your life. The other people you know you consider to be more acquaintances, and you should be careful what you say, or what you choose to tell these people, because there is a lot of jealousy and resentment that surrounds you. I see that you are healthy and will live a long healthy life. I see that you are meant to help people. You should be working in a way so that you can help people and you will get a lot of satisfaction from it. I see that right now you are not happy with your situation; you are not where you want to be, and are not doing what you thought you would be doing. What do you do for work?"
"I'm a stay at home mom."
"I see that you are not happy with your current situation and are not doing what you should be doing. You should be working to help others. It is what you are meant to do. How many children do you have?"
"Four."
"I see that you are concerned for the health and well-being of one of your children in particular but this shouldn't concern you. Whatever issues they are dealing with are not serious and they will be fine. I see that your children, and your family, are very healthy and meant to lead long, productive lives. Are you married?"
"Yes."
"I see that while you have had difficult relationships in the past, you have had your share of hardships in love and romance, but you are with the person you are meant to be with. You have recently drifted apart with a stressful situation but will reconnect and I see that when you reconnect you will grow stronger together as a unit, instead of as individuals. You are headed into a difficult and stressful time with an upcoming career change for your husband, where things will be difficult and stressful on your relationship, but this change is meant to be and it will be for the best, for everyone."
That was basically everything, I think. (Girls, if I missed or forgot anything feel free to add it as a comment.) It was so cool and I would love to get my palms read again! The next time I go I'll bring a tape recorder though, LOL
After the palm readings we headed back to 95 and into Maine. We stopped at a few of the outlet stores before having to head back so I could make my physical therapy appointment. Sigh... So sad. I wish it could have been longer, or that I had another day off today or this upcoming weekend or something. But it was definitely nice to get out of the house and away from all the chaos for a while. In the car on the ride home I actually started to think about the kids and had this weird new feeling about them... I missed them. It was nice to be able to say that because it means that I do love them and I am reaching a point where I will be able to say, "I can't imagine my life without them now." It helps to get out once in a while because it makes you appreciate your kids. When I used to leave Gwen at day care I cried the whole first week. But at the end of the day I was so excited to pick her up and give her hugs and kisses and spend a couple of hours with her that it made all the difference.
I should get out more often!! Bueller? Bueller? Bueller?
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